Behind The Mask

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalms 139:13-16
I saw a picture the other day and it was this girl with a mask on and she had stunning eyes and beautiful hair. The top of it said "never fall in love during COVID". The other picture following was her without the mask on and she had like ten missing teeth. Hilarious!!!

So funny aside. I moved to a different town, had a baby, and then COVID happened. I went from seeing so many faces every day to not seeing anyone. Let me tell you, that can make anyone feel lonely and super purposeless. I am SUCH a people person, and to be stripped from people is hard for me. My daily interaction with humans consists of my 7 year old and my 7 month old. Talking about poop and changing poopy diapers are my top ten daily tasks. Trips to Walmart or any store would be exciting for me to just see other people. Then put a mask on that, and that purpose then fades. No one can see me. No one knows who I am, or that I am even smiling. No one knows what is behind the mask.

That is when I really had to shake myself. I was falling into such a pit and needed to focus on WHO I am in Christ and the PURPOSE He has for me instead of the current situation at hand. Sure no one knows me but how can they if I never get to know anyone?! I am not making a difference so in what ways can I start every day trying?! How can I fulfill God's purpose for my life right now in SOME way?!

If you are feeling lonely in this time or that you have no purpose, do not let the enemy lie to you. That is exactly where He wants you. If we focus on what is NOT happening right now, then we will never ever MAKE things happen.

Heavenly Father, I love you. Please help me remember the purpose you have for me. I might feel lonely but let me know that you know who is behind the mask and that person is fearfully and wonderfully made. I love you and I am so thankful for your love and your strength that you continue to give me every day. I want to be more effective and to be used by you. Thank you for all of these things. Amen.